Have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language.
Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now,
because you would not be able to live them.
And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now.
Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually,
without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.
Rainer Maria Rilke
Beautiful!
ReplyDeleteTomorrow is Ashley's "death date" or entrance into heaven date...I feel like I have lived into some of the answers, but on the eve of the symbolic day that my world changed forever, I go immediately to that place on that day...Grief is truly a journey with dips and turns and chunks of pavement missing. When I stub my toe on the walk, I am surprised, but immediatley feel the pain and remember it all to well...even embrace it. To lose the pain is to lose a part of Ashley... It has lessened and is more managable...but not gone. I think I have said before, I don't want it to entirely ever leave....to hurt and feel the sadness is to be alive and to appreciate... Thanks for sharing. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteI love the poem. Shannon, you just nailed how I feel. Thank you both for sharing.
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